Tangled spin, gimme reason

how could this happen?

I fallin for another boy. Again.

Asshoule. That easy? Easily forget the old one? I hate myself.

Well,no I am not excatly forget the one. But when I see this new boy, my stomach is full of butterflies and my heart scream : I WANT HIM.
No,it's not that 'chiliboy'. He's hot but I just like him for fun or seeing not for being boyf.
He's not as hot or handsome or cute as chili but there's something in him that makes me want to.....want to.... Oh idk what to say. I just want him.

I didnt tell this to ANY fellas, not yet. Nobody know this. I'm scared of what they'll say. It's been one month and I'm already fallin for another guy? Crap. I feels like cheap girl who can easily fallin. Shame on me.

What can I do? It's just happen. I cant do anything. I cant help. Nobody can.

I dont even know his name. Lol. And might be he dont know i'm ever exist! Gah. Fallin for a guy who dont know you? WASTIN' TIME.

Oh please God. Youre the owner of my heart. What your reason makes me feel like this? Oh god, you know what i want. I want pmdk. I have no time for fallin in love. Especially with a boy who dont know me.


Well maybe God have a plan. I just can hoping this all happen is the best God gave to me.







Ya Allah,jagalah hatiku hanya untuk mencintai lelaki yang kelak menjadi jodohku, yang mencintaiku sepenuh hatinya, sepanjang hidupnya dan menerima diriku apa adanya.
A m i n.